Repeat After Me

Surviving Life, Love & Babies..


October 2015

Sidebar – I love Leo..

So just for the record, I think Leonardo Dicaprio is the hottest man alive.

Leonardo DiCaprio
Leonardo DiCaprio

Pity about the huge ego, pity about the unavailability-fear-of-commitment-thing, but man, has he got better with age! Fell in love all over again in Blood Diamond. Just saw it again.. sigh..

Don’t get me wrong, I love hubby, but I’ve already had to let him know I’d have to leave him if Leo came my way. He knows where he stands.

Honesty is the most important thing in a marriage, after all. 🙂


A key to my weight loss….


I’ve worked out one of my keys to staying on track for the day.

Tracking is imperative – I’ve tracked every day for over 6 months now… but it’s when I do it that really counts – I sit and write down my points for during the day while I eat breaky. Then I go off and usually stick to it pretty well. But sometimes I eat unexpected things, or have a few too many points on snacks, and if I don’t track those when I get home, inevitably I’ll be over my points by the end of the night.

So the key –for me – is tracking before I make dinner. If I know what I’ve had for the day and I work out how many points I’ve got left for the day, I’m so much more likely to keep to my points for the day. I can choose a dinner that suits what I’ve got left, and I can have or not have snacks or treats based on it.

Anyhoo. For me who’s coming out of a 4-week slide, it’s good to find these keys. I’m back at my 10kgs and hoping this move to ProPoints doesn’t change the trend as my sneaky WI was high this morning – but then that happens at least once a week so I’m learning to ignore it..

Would love to know what your keys are – got any gems for me? xx

Baby Food Schmaby Food..

Vegetable-Colours-whiteGawsh, well I put this one off as long as I could, but I’m finally into giving my son solids, and he generally loves it. Problem is, I’m in a rut already. A couple of weeks in. Ha.

He loves his pumpkin, sweet potato and carrot. He hated rice cereal till I laced it with honey and pear, but then it plugged him up for 13 days, so that was the end of that. So on the ole mother-in-laws suggestion I started him on some oatmeal and pear, but when that didn’t work, I rang a community nurse who gave me heaps of good advice on how to get him pooping again and also happened to mention that oatmeal will plug him up more as his tummy isn’t ready for it till about 9 months. Joy. Too many rookie mistakes here!! So I started him on stewed prunes and pear, which he seemed to love for the first 3 days then turned his nose up at for the next week. Aaaaand, that’s about where I’m at.

In my other post I mentioned that I’m avoiding a whole raft of foods because they make dear son burp, fart and screech till all hours with tummy cramps, so I am not game to try feeding those things directly to him (seeing the miniscule amount he gets through breastmilk is enough push him off the normal wagon..) So. No broccoli, cauliflower, onions, leek, cabbage, lentils, beans, legumes, chocolate flavours or anything with caffeine (easy for baby but not for mummy!!) Cuts down my veg options a bit, which is annoying, as it’s all the cheap ones.

So I went off to look for new food ideas.

My friend and I came up with the idea to make coloured mixes of veggies for every day eating:

(And yes I know some of these are technically fruit, but I’m sticking with sweet vs savoury!! 🙂 )

Green Mix – Zucchini, Spinach, Beans & Peas, Bok Choi (for her, Cabbage & Broccoli as well)

Yellow – Capsicum, Squash, Corn,

White Mix – Parsnip, Potato, Yams, White Sweet Potato, Taro, Mushrooms (for her, Cauliflower)

Orange Mix – Carrot, Pumpkin, Sweet Potato (for her, onion)

Purple Mix – Eggplant, beetroot, turnip (Red Cabbage or Caulif for her)

Red – Capsicum, Tomato

And also some coloured fruit mixes:

Green – Green Apple, Kiwifruit,

Orange – Mandarin Oranges, Peaches, Nectarines,

White – Pear, Lychees, Coconut, Custard Apple,

Yellow – Pineapple, Banana, Mango

Red – Strawberries, Cherries, Raspberries, Cranberries

Purple – Blueberries, Prunes,  Figs, Grapes (no skin), Mulberries, Plums

I would have liked to add melons, but I don’t think they’d stew/mush up well for the freezer. I’m all into making a big batch and freezing some for another day. Why do more work than you have to??!!

So. We’ll see how I go. Want to try the green veggies mix first, or veggies other than orange at least, because my little man is going to turn orange soon!!

Repeat After Me: I will not end up feeding my child yoghurt at every meal instead of getting him to try healthy veggies and fruit 🙂

The biggest changes are not the numbers..

This whole losing weight thing is really crazy.

You get fat with your head in the sand, your life on autopilot and your will lying on the couch whining, ‘I can’t do it.’ Your clothes get tight, so you buy bigger ones and ignore the tags, or cut them off. You feel like crap from all the junk you eat, and you tell yourself ‘I’m treating myself’ and ‘I deserve it.’ You start being embarrassed about how you look in photos so you refuse to be in them or hide behind the camera. You feel uncomfortable and start noticing that people don’t look you in the eye as much, don’t smile at you as much. You start putting up walls and telling yourself that if they are judging the book by it’s cover, then they haven’t got the right to read it. You socialise less. You start to feel like the one on the outside of the group, whether it’s true or not. You start to see things differently, more negatively. You console yourself by eating more and ignoring what you’re doing to yourself – focussing instead on what others are doing to you. Everything becomes their fault, you pass the blame on to anyone but the one person who can do something about it. You feel helpless and worthless and weak.

Wow. It’s certainly a long way down.

And then…

You finally realise that nothing’s going to change unless you change it. It might have taken a long time to work it out, but you finally get to the place where you are ready to do something about it, ready to admit the habits that have been running your life need to change. You start to take some action and the more action you take, the more powerful you feel. Each positive change opens the way for more actions, more processes. You start feeling better about life, about your place in the world, even if the weight is coming off slowly. You begin to realise that you always had the ability to change things, you just didn’t give yourself enough credit. You make some good habits, and these carry you through a few tough spots where you really doubt yourself, and then you come out the other side feeling like you’ve proven to yourself that you have a little ‘stickability.’ It feels good. You start to look at other areas of your life – your relationships, your workplace, your attitudes. And once the weight finally starts coming off, whether fast or slow, you start to see physical evidence of your journey.

If you still think this is all about numbers on a scale, you’re dreaming. This is so much bigger than that.

I for one am stoked about what I’m seeing in my life. I really hope you’re feeling the same way. 🙂

Toughen up!

Something that stuck out to me on this weight loss show i watched once was something said by Gillian Michaels. She was pushing this poor chick to her limit and the girl was refusing to give up, just getting hammered harder and harder and keeping going, and at one point she stopped between sets, wasted, and said to Gillian, “Does it get easier?” and Gillian replied, “No, but you get tougher.”

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Her reaction was about the same as mine, she closed her eyes and took a deep breath and then kept ploughing forward. I was a bit disappointed with the answer, but at the same time I was grateful to Gillian that she didn’t say some motivational bullcrap instead of being honest. So many times people say rubbish, “You can do anything,” “Here’s a quick fix,” “This will make everything easy.” The bottom line is, there are no quick fixes. Things only get easier because we get better at doing them, not because it’s any less difficult to do. We exercise our self control and will power every time we say no to something and stick to our guns. We get better at taking responsibility for our own actions every time we choose to face the facts instead of making an excuse. We learn to fight our minds as things get harder and push into new territory instead of staying in our comfort zone. What we are doing right now is still hard – we’re just better at it because we’ve been doing it for a while. If I stopped all the good things I’m doing right now, and stuck my head in the sand for a few months – I’d end up back where I started and it would all be damn hard again. Man – I do not want to go back there.

I feel stronger and fitter than I’ve been in years. I feel prouder of myself than I’ve been in years. I feel more in control of my life and choices than I have in years.

Is it easy now? Heck no.

But I’m getting tougher – and I love it.

The Road Back to Being in Control…

It’s funny how losing a few kgs can affect us in so many ways. I’ve lost so little in the grand scheme of things, but I have gained so much as well in terms of positive changes and growth. We can get so stagnant when we are unhappy with ourselves.

We feel unworthy, unloved, ungrateful. We hide behind our unhappiness and our layers and allow ourselves to stick our heads in the sand. Let’s face it, none of us got this way because we were being honest with ourselves and looking at the facts. We all denied reality, blamed it on someone else, made excuses, bought bigger clothes and tried to tell ourselves that the clothes are a smaller fit, the tag didn’t matter. That’s not the healthy, strong, proactive mindset of a woman in control of her life. That’s the weak-willed, pushover, victim mindset of a woman in the passenger seat, who’ll never really get the most out of life.

I no longer want to be that woman. I have wasted a bit of time, and I guess I did that for reasons that were right at the time – but I will not keep doing it. Once we wake up and look at the facts as they are, we can begin to change the things we no longer like. I am not just changing what I eat, I’m changing how think, how I respond to my emotions, how I react to others around me. I think a lot of it is about being the one who makes the choices, instead of having choices foisted upon you, or allowing yourself to be pushed and pulled around by circumstances, people, emotions.

When I go to a party, I am not forced to put food in my mouth, I can choose what suits me and I find other things to do when I’ve eaten enough. On a weekend, I do not have to ruin my week because I’m going out, I can make smart choices and still enjoy the atmosphere of my surroundings. In front of the TV, I don’t have to eat the chips my husband pulls out, I can think about the meal I just ate and have a cup of orange tea. Learning to be in control again, after so many years of giving in to every whim and fancy, is not easy. But it’s worth it. I am in control of my body and thoughts, they are not in control of me.

This journey is so worth it. I’m glad I’m doing it now – I’m so glad I didn’t put it off any longer and waste more time. It’s hard, sure – it’s frustrating, definitely – but it’s so rewarding, and I’m not going to stop until I’m done.

I Have A Theory About Cake…

You can tell a lot about a person from what kind of cake they eat.

My mum eats those slices, like apple and rhubarb slice with crumbly stuff on top. She’s a people pleaser who was always a skinny girl, till she had kids. Then she did WW (100 years ago) and has been on the corner of healthy & fanatical ever since. They eat four-bean hotpots with tofu weekly. Mmmm. My dad eats those not-enough-sugar german pastries with poppy seeds in them. He’s always been the gruff unsympathetic type – ‘you’re putting on weight, your husband won’t love you.’ (thick german accent) He could do with a little more sugar. My sister, two kids, works in a hospital, eats those stick-a-flagpole-in-it-and-it’ll-stand-up caramel mudcakes you get from the cheesecake shop. She’s running a big department with lots of useless people, trying to lose weight, exercising regularly, and eating kfc regularly. My friend Peter, the weight-lifter, eats lemon meringue pie and has a drawer full of junk food in his office, but works out for 1.5 hrs at the gym each night. He’s a talker and drives too fast. My friend Kerry, mum of 2 lil kids, lives on the coast, eats banana bread. Homey, comforting, pleasing, not irritating to anyone, loves making people happy.

So my theory is that people pick the cake that suits their view of themselves. When I’m feeling good, I pick lemon lime pie, or an apple strudel. I went out this weekend and I picked a two-storey building of chocolate mousse with cream and chocolate on top. What does that say about me? He he 🙂 I mean, you’ve got to laugh, right? Here I am, doing my best to change my ways, and here is a massive blast from the past staring me in the face, and I can’t say no to it. Let alone say no, I order it with relish, I feel that twinge of excitement, or naughtiness, and I sit down and chow into it! Craziness. Have I learned nothing?

Anyhoo, I only got through half of it, but I still felt sick for the rest of the afternoon. Halfway through I was looking at my mum’s rhubarb crumble and coveting that light tastiness of something with fruit in it at least. I don’t know what it is in me that convinces me that I like big fat rich chocolate things. I really don’t. So why do I want it when I see it?

I really need to learn to look at food through new eyes – the food that makes me FEEL good, not the food that just LOOKS good and ends up making you feel crappy, grumpy, sick and ashamed of yourself. That’s not a reward! That’s not a treat! Golly gosh.

Food should make you feel good. And for that, you’d have to pick good food.


Anyhoo, Just my thought for the day..

Any which way you slice it…. Moving to Propoints..

I love fruit. I’ve been hanging onto the old points system like a fat kid holding onto cake, and now I am discovering, talking to all you wonderful well-ahead-of-me women, that I might be missing out on a good thing! 🙂apple

And if I was someone who didn’t mind missing out on good things, well, I wouldn’t be here, would I now? So I think it’s time to modernise my Weight Watchering. So for anyone else out there who’s curious about changing from old to new – I know I’m not the only one still doing it – I will write about how I go with it.

But I have to be honest from the start – I’m changing for the fruit. He he. Yes, sadly, that’s the main reason. Updated points books, new healthier system, less bad carbs, Pah! – who cares – It’s all about getting free mangoes and bananas. Vegetables – Pah! Who cares about vegetables! What kind of chocolate craving are they going to avert? What fat person ever said they struggled with a spinach craving?

So. At the moment, all I really know about the new system is that it’s all about taking into account more than just caloric intake – it’s about getting the right foods as well, and discouraging you from eating the bad foods – which are worth more points – and encouraging you to eat more good foods – worth less points. And you have to pay to learn about it and get new books etc and I won’t say any more about WWers making lots of money out of it because I appreciate them letting me on here :). And you get free fruit. Well, I mean, nobody drops it at your house free of charge, but you can eat it till you puke and you still don’t have to write it up on your tracker. He he. Can’t wait.

But not yet.

In about 3 weeks on the school hols so I can get me head round it. So that’s the plan, stan. Will let u know how I go.

If there’s anyone out there who thinks it’s a big mistake, speak now or forever hold your peace. But I might not believe you, you might just be hogging the fruit. Have a good week and BE GOOD!

$100 for a 100 grams!! :)

Lost 200g this week, so I celebrated with $200 spend-up at Jaqui E!! He he – feel a bit spoilt, but they are the first clothes I’ve bought since I started this journey – so I figured it was okay, even though I still haven’t lost 10kg yet! Sitting on 7.6kg lost currently – only about 25kg to go! Anyhoo, you know how it is when you find the perfect dress, in the perfect colour, and it’s in a regular-sized clothing store, and IT FITS… well… recipe for credit-card disaster! And it’s a size 18, which I haven’t been able to buy in a regular store for about 4years, so it feels so good to try-and-buy rather than the old try-and-sigh 🙂 he he.

ALSO, found this cute-as jacket there, fell in love, tried on the 18, and it fit really well but chic-ily loose, so I thought, well if I get the 16, it will still fit me in 10kg’s time… so I did. !! And hubby put up a surprisingly weak defense, so I made short work of that and spent all me cash for the next two weeks! Gotta love it. And I was there to buy boots.. ermm.. perhaps next fortnight…

Anyhoo, Repeat After Me: spoil yourself when the time is right – and that time is….. ANYTIME!!!

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